 Today I discovered myself. It was a totally new revolution. You see, I am not a young girl starting puberty, though sometimes I act like it. I am a very grown up woman. I have had all the schoolings and heard all the things about norm. That is why for a long time I thought I was *weird.* I have lived my life as everyone thought I should like a good little girl and did as I was told. Then ya know what...I stopped. All of a sudden I decided to live my life as I wanted to. To go and do what would make me happy. This being such a foreign notion to me, it is taking me a while to get started. But take my word for it, it will be done.
There are feelings running around inside this body that have been choked down and hidden for years...many years. Now they will all be taken out and looked at. They will be sorted by what will make me the happiest and then acted on. Why??? Because damn it I deserve it. I know that I am not like most other *normal* people. My likes in the sexual world are not like most of society would accept. But ya know...that is no big deal. Oh it used to be a big deal and all that, but not any more. Why? Because I have friends now that help me to understand that it is not wrong to be different. That is what makes the world go round, and as long as I am not harming anyone then it is ok for me to feel this way and to act on it. It took me years and years to know the joys of feeling helpless to another and then to be treated in the manner that makes my dreams come true, and ya know what????? I loved it. Knowing the joy of being unable to stop or control what was happening sent me to such new heights that I thought I would die. To be able to object and fight and moan..**all in the realm of my needs** and have the partner not stop until the height has been reached. But all the while feeling so safe with them that you know you will be taken care of. Being held in arms of one that loves you....truly loves you for what and who you are makes you want to cry. To know the joys of feeling love with one that really cares, and wants you, is a dream come true. Trembling in the arms of a Mistress or Master as they take the body that is so willingly given to their pleasure. To want to please them in any and every way imaginable. To kneel to them and offer your submission in a way that leaves no doubt that they own you. To be owned, controlled, told what to do by One that will accept no argument about it, is one of the most wonderful feelings this little slave has ever felt. To be commanded by girl's Mistress or Master and for them to know she is so hot by it that she can't wait to do for them, might seem strange, but to this little slave it is heaven. This little slave has found herself. She is no longer hiding the fact that she is so very happy to be the slave of her Mistress or Master. |